A realization

I had a sudden realization while I was typing a news story earlier today: the reason I became a journalist was to prove my college journ professor wrong (friends, don’t mention her name here because she has lots of fans…I don’t know why o_O). I recalled an earlier comment she made about me (behind my back) about my writing and all and that I would make a good RESEARCHER. I didn’t know what to make of that comment, whether it was a complement or insult, but nevertheless, that comment never left me.

Insults were thrown at me when I was still working for the college paper, which somehow gave me a glimpse of what life awaits me in journalism. But hell, I survived, right? And after months of denial, I’m finally back to being a journalist.

It’s not so much as I’m scared of that college professor, it’s just that she has this way of putting other people down. Body language, perhaps. I dunno if that’s intentional, but it really really irritates me the way she has favorites and the way she lets her biases cloud her judgment (because she is THAT good, I suppose).

Anyway, I told my friends that should visit Ateneo again, I wouldn’t want to bump into her because it would be akward. But now I realized that a part of me would want to see her so I could show her that “Look, you didn’t believe in me but look where I am now.” (with matching bitchy gestures for drama. Hee). That would be really really amazing right? Well for me it is. Because I’m able to prove to her and to myself that I can do good in journalism after all

This is me being emo =)

These past few days have been really painful and difficult for me. At work, I can easily forget about my personal problems. But when I come home to an empty home and the quiet sets in, it’s hard to hold back the tears. I keep telling myself that this feeling will pass (as with other emo-slash-depressive tendencies I have), but that seems so far away.

Music, as I’ve always said, has been my therapy. Listening to happy songs makes me feel lighter inside, no matter how insignificant its effects may be on me.

I should stop looking at other people’s Multiply accounts and start concentrating on my own life. Sigh.

This is why I’m really looking forward to Saturday. A girl’s day, might I say, is what can help cure this emo-ness.

My mixed tape Part 1

In random order:

Apologies — Grace Potter and the Nocturnals

Never Find Again — Jason Reeves

Make It Mine — Jason Mraz

Happily Never After — Pussycat Dolls 

Right Here, Right Now — HSM3 Soundtrack

Chase This Light — Jimmy Eat World

Best Not to Think About It — Athlete

Stay Away — The Honorary Title

Bent — Matt Nathanson

That’s What You Get — Paramore

Ordinary — Train

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Music is lurve

Dela Paz takes blame for Moscow mess

 

PNP exec admits irregularity in release of funds

By Maila Ager, Abigail Kwok
INQUIRER.net
First Posted 11:27:00 11/15/2008

 

MANILA, Philippines — (UPDATE 2) Retired police comptroller Eliseo Dela Paz admitted Saturday sole responsibility for the alleged unauthorized release of the P6.9 million from the Philippine National Police (PNP) intelligence fund.

SAYS SANTIAGO: ‘Puno, Verzosa should be investigated’

 

Gordon hits ‘military tradition’ in the PNP

By Abigail Kwok
INQUIRER.net
First Posted 16:06:00 11/15/2008

 

MANILA, Philippines — Both Interior and Local Government Secretary Ronaldo Puno and Philippine National Police (PNP) Director General Jesus Verzosa should be investigated as well on the multimillion-peso euros confiscated from several police officials in Moscow, Senator Miriam Defensor-Santiago said on Saturday.

Dela Paz, wife planned to tour Europe

 

Wife had money because of bigger bag

By Abigail Kwok, Maila Ager
INQUIRER.net
First Posted 13:48:00 11/15/2008

 

MANILA, Philippines — (UPDATE) Retired police comptroller Eliseo Dela Paz admitted Saturday that he and his wife planned to go to other European cities after the Interpol Conference in St. Petersburg, Russia, last October after his retirement.

LEADERSHIP VOWS: PNP improvements after Moscow incident

By Abigail Kwok
INQUIRER.net
First Posted 23:20:00 11/15/2008

 

MANILA, Philippines — The leadership of the Philippine National Police (PNP) vowed to improve its policies after getting the flak from several senators during the investigation into the controversy surrounding the P6.9 million allegedly obtained from the PNP intelligence fund.

SAYS DELA PAZ: 45,000 euros for friend’s pricey watch

By Abigail Kwok
INQUIRER.net
First Posted 23:01:00 11/15/2008

 

MANILA, Philippines — “Family friend” businessman Tyrone Ng Arejola said it was partly his fault that retired police comptroller Eliseo Dela Paz was caught with more than the allowed euros in Moscow without declaring the money to local authorities.

I miss…

I miss lazy weekends.

I miss good conversation.

I miss great friends.

I miss certainties.

I miss having crushes.

I miss having butterflies in my stomach.

I miss peace and quiet.

I miss feeling loved.

I miss Starbucks coffee — Caramel Machiatto.

Kidnapped nurse freed in Basilan

By Julie Alipala, Abigail Kwok
Mindanao Bureau, INQUIRER.net
First Posted 22:57:00 11/07/2008

ZAMBOANGA CITY, Philippines—(UPDATE) After more than four months in captivity, 24-year-old nurse Precious Feliciano was freed Friday night by suspected Abu Sayyaf extremists, officials said.